I’ve been a different person since I started meditating. Three years ago, I was very temperamental. I thought I was open-minded, but I only saw things from my narrow point of view. I’m less reactive now and can take in other people’s perspectives, even when I disagree.
It took about six months into my “awakening” for me to start meditating. I was very resistant because I was diagnosed with ADD. I took this as having a doctor’s note proving my brain wouldn’t shut up, so I should be exempt. One thing I learned that diminishes this opposition is that WE ALL HAVE SOME FORM OF ADD NOW.
How could we not in today’s world? There’s stimulation overload left and right! Toddlers have iPads to entertain themselves with while in the stroller. TikTok has given all of us the attention span of a fruit fly.
I was one of those people who didn’t realize how much I was on my phone. Everyone constantly checks their messages or social media, so I thought it was normal. It wasn’t until after I started meditating that I realized how addicted I was. In the audiobook, The Five Love Languages: Singles Edition by Gary Chapman, I learned that my love language is quality time. Thus, I had to put down the phone to give what I wanted to receive.
A few months later, some friends commented on how I pay attention now. Some of them elaborated on how I was always on my phone before. It shocked me because, as I said, EVERYONE seemed to be on their phone. So for these people to point this out (who I know check their phones frequently) showed me that I did have a problem.
Prior to that, I watched a show on Gaia TV, and a man on there said something like everyone has a difficult time with meditation at first. You’re not special! I felt like he was talking directly to me. That week I purchased a device that goes around your head called Muse. It connects to an app so you can visually detect your brain’s progress. I only used it for a month and then sold it. It’s a nice bridge to meditation, but not necessary.
I started with a minute and added twenty seconds to a minute each day. I first listened to simple sounds, like birds chirping and wind chimes. Then I graduated to guided meditations. Within a couple of months, I could easily meditate for twenty minutes.
Initially, I would get frustrated with myself for having a thought. It would make me want to tear out my earplugs and give up. I had to teach myself that it was normal and okay. I had to learn to bring my focus back to the music or my breath without getting upset.
Reminding myself of this is still something I do. I’ve heard that even the best meditators have “bad” days, just like everyone else and with everything else. There was a lot of nodding off and falling asleep in the beginning. I learned from energy healer Jeffrey Allen that this is GOOD because it means you’re removing stuck, unconscious energy.
I know this is true. In 2020 I listened to many grounding meditations and would always fall asleep. I’m one of those people who naturally live in outer space, so I must emphasize staying grounded. At first, I would fall asleep almost immediately upon turning on the meditation.
I would listen to the same guided meditation each day. I would fall asleep less and less until, eventually, I could stay awake for the whole duration. Once I achieved that, I would move on to a new meditation. Now I can meditate for an hour without music, not fall asleep, yet be conscious that I’m in between two worlds.
If you’ve ever had surgery, being between these two worlds feels similar to waking up from anesthesia, except with less grogginess. Although, I’ve experienced deep trance states where I’m completely out of it afterward. Some, I couldn’t even open my eyes for minutes later. It felt like my eyelids were glued shut!
Intense meditations and trance states (from my experience) are connected to your physical body, but being more aware that you’re in your etheric body (if that makes sense). I know I’m in two places at once. I can feel everything that’s going on in both bodies. Sometimes I can see and explore outside of my body (OOBE), but it’s hard to integrate both experiences into the “logical” mind once I go entirely back into the physical.
How could I see if I couldn’t see? How could I feel what was happening inside my body if I wasn’t in it? Things like that don’t make “sense,” and trying to make sense of it afterward can drive you crazy. Acknowledging these experiences breeds more of them (if that’s what you’re looking for), so it’s best just to trust what you remember.
It’s not about being a monk and completely clearing your mind. There are tons of meditation genres. After you’ve found one that suits your needs, you may want to graduate to something more challenging or less challenging later on. Right now, I’m working on transcending into the void.
Meditation has also helped me connect more to this world. I appreciate being outdoors and in nature now. Animals, colors, sounds, synchronicities, and signs could have been right in front of my face before, and I wouldn’t have noticed. I was always on my phone or in my head.
Meditating has helped me connect to my body and my feelings. I know this is why I’ve lost seventy pounds and kept it off without calorie counting, pills, and excessive exercise. I wasn’t grounded before, so the extra weight tried pulling me back down to Earth. I also wasn’t paying attention to my feelings, intuition, and health, so my subconscious got my attention another way- through vanity.
Your mind is just another muscle you have to train. I recently heard someone say, “healthy is the new sexy.” I invite you to live with this sentiment. Being healthy in the mind, body, and soul is beautiful, and meditation helps one achieve this for FREE.
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